You can’t experience the good without experiencing the bad. If you experienced one without the other, everything would just be. Lately I have felt on top of the world. Everything is starting to make sense to me. All of the lessons I had to learn, all of the struggling I had to experience, it is all making sense. I couldn’t be any happier!
I am in a place that I love, I cannot tell you how much I love Salt Lake City. The people, the mountains, I love all of it. I stayed away from Salt Lake because I heard it was so judgmental, so conservative. It is so far from that! I love everything about this beautiful city. This city feels like home to me and I could never give that up.
Life in Vegas literally kicked me out. I was broken in so many ways, to the point that I could not keep myself together. Have you ever experienced anything like that? I felt weak, I felt vulnerable, I felt so out of place. It was meant to make me feel lost and broken, so I would be open to new possibilities.
Do you believe that there is a plan for us to follow? I do. Right now I feel so aligned with who I am supposed to me. Everything feels right. I feel whole, healed, free. For once in my life I’m able to go to bed by 9 pm every night and make morning Mysore practice with a full night of sleep. I’m able to have friends that I can be myself around. Life is more normal than it ever has been.
I have always had a love for the outdoors. There has been times when I feel like I should be living in the wilderness somewhere, away from civilization (haha!). I have found it. There are trees everywhere, you can’t even imagine how beautiful it is and I haven’t gotten to the see the mountains covered in snow yet! Just wait… if you follow me on instagram expect the daily snowy mountain pic on the story because I just can’t get over how beautiful it is.
Seeds were planted in my life to bring me here. Everything I have been drawn to my whole life is here. Theres a strong community, a support of local businesses, small mom and pop coffee shops, and vegan places to eat everywhere! There is love in all things and it isn’t hard to see here. I’m an optimist and I found the love and good in Vegas, but sometimes you have to dig to find it. What a breath of fresh air it is to see it there on the surface!
My life is slowly transitioning into a life that is centered around the family. I have been so caught up in work and making life happen, I’ve lost out on building a family. I’m thirty! I haven’t been engaged, no kids, no marriage, nothing. Moving to Utah has made me want a partner, a family, a life that isn’t just me. There is so much more to life for me, and I never would have found that in Las Vegas.
I was losing myself slowly to work 24/7, I was depleted. Some days I couldn’t make yoga in the morning because I was at work until 2 am, how is that healthy for me when I am promoting how to live a healthy lifestyle? It isn’t! Vibrationally I was being kicked out because I knew better, but I lacked the ‘how’. Life made the ‘how’ happen.
It has been almost three months since I’ve been in Salt Lake City. I have had better conversations, made better friends than I have being in Las Vegas for 20+ years. The people are different. Why? Well I honestly think that the heart center is very shut off and its difficult for everyone to function when they are living in a city that is surrounded by the Vegas Environment. I did meet a lot of glorious people in Vegas, but they had done so much inner work and weren’t in a working environment that would build a shield around them.
This is the healing I needed. I had to feel that I could open my heart to those around me. Learning to love unconditionally is so difficult, but it doesn’t have to be. Yes you can love those around you, but what about everyone you come into contact with? That is what I am learning here, the lesson of loving everyone. Trusting everyone that I meet. I have lived so long with a filter of trust that it became a part of me. It feels so good to just trust and let go. Free is the best way to describe how I feel.I have myself back.
I can’t wait to share this new chapter of my life with all of you, its going to be a beautiful one! <3